[ sort of trust. sort of trust. any fist-pumping stiles may have done in this moment is quickly eclipsed by her actual message. ]
being in your top five list of people to talk to in a crisis aside, i'd say it's worth about a holy god are you actually insane on the sliding crazy scale. did i read that wrong? you actually WANTED the bite to work?
[ stiles isn't very good at remaining nonjudgmental. ]
is this some kind of power thing? because i've seen scott on the full moon, and he was kind of the opposite of king of the mountain. or queen, in your case.
T E X T ☲ i just have a lot of feelings and you get to receive them a lot okay
[ sort of trust. fun fact stiles: it might be more than sort of if you didn't go get yourself trapped in a pool and done a lot of things that lydia still is annoyed about. this is why your life sucks. and hey look at you being NEARLY AS BAD AS JACKSON. ]
NO. I just- I'm immune, Stiles. Peter bit me and scratched at me because of that. If it would have taken, I wouldn't have had to deal with any of that. I would have been a wolf. I would take that over feeling like a puppet and running around in the woods nude. You- I should have known you wouldn't get it either. That you'd be just as bad as Jackson. "Oh, Lydia, why would you ever want a bite to take?"
[ and then sort of as an afterthought. ]
...Did you really just compare me to him?
T E X T ☲ it's like christmas every time this happens tbh
... oh, so it is a power thing. he wisely does not comment on that. ]
yes. no. kind of. sorry. you're not scott, you are so not even a little bit scott. sorryx2 about the woods and nakedness thing, by the way, that must've sucked.
[ and oof, that kind of stings. no, he doesn't really get it, lydia. he doesn't want what you do. he can try to understand, he can see the perks, how it might make him stronger and better and faster, but he said no to peter—he'll always say no. not that you said no, or even had the chance to, but—
and the puppet. thing. yeah. he switches gears, feeling a little worse for her than he did when beginning this conversation. ]
did jackson seriously tell you that? wasn't he the one all gung-ho about the bite in the first place?
T E X T ☲ you give me awesome presents back so I CAN'T EVEN EVER STOP
[ yes, stiles, it's a power thing. sort of. not exactly in the way you think it is. it's maybe more of a control thing. it's complicated. ]
I lost nine pounds. Minor bright side in it, actually. Also. Thank you. I- Never make me be him in your head. Ever. Again.
[ the thing is, when presented with all the options and given a choice, she'd choose staying human. that would mean getting to still hang out with allison, and it would mean her attack never happened and it would her life would be ninety percent more simple.
he can't see it but she almost looks like she wants to cry after he asks. ]
No. I would have liked that better than being told I ruined everything for him. That was fun, you now. I don't want to talk to him about this. You can't transfer immunity, Stiles. I'm sure if I told him that I wished my bite had taken, I'd end up hearing him be bitter about what happened with his. It's not my fault.
[ ha ha ha he's gonna kill jackson so dead. what a douchebag, jesus christ, telling lydia she ruined everything for him. first his stupid insufferable whining about wanting the bite and then the whole lizard thing and for cripes' sakes this is just getting out of control. ]
if there was anyone who could figure out how to transfer immunity, it'd be you, lydia.
i didn't say it was your fault. it's not your fault at all.
it's just... life's screwed up way of telling you that you matter.
T E X T ☲ this is where i draw hearts around you to show our mutual l a u v e I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT
[ oh good. well, he's cool with sitting back and watching it happen, tbh. less work, more entertainment. ]
dude, i don't know. you've always been special, you've always known it. i mean, all those times you looked down at the guys who didn't worship at your feet - it's because they weren't good enough for you, right? because only you were good enough for you. even jackson barely made the cut, and he's... jackson. he's like guy you.
[ he's going somewhere with this, just bear with him. ]
scott told me that derek said, like, nobody had immunity. you're probably the only person the in the world who's got it. that means nobody can hurt you and make you into a slave to the moon once a month. [ more than she already is. but that's girl stuff. ] what i'm trying to say is, you're better than that. you're on top.
and i think it kind of fits you, so... just my two cents.
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T E X T ☲ oh my god yes bring it to me
being in your top five list of people to talk to in a crisis aside, i'd say it's worth about a holy god are you actually insane on the sliding crazy scale. did i read that wrong? you actually WANTED the bite to work?
[ stiles isn't very good at remaining nonjudgmental. ]
is this some kind of power thing? because i've seen scott on the full moon, and he was kind of the opposite of king of the mountain. or queen, in your case.
T E X T ☲ i just have a lot of feelings and you get to receive them a lot okay
NO. I just- I'm immune, Stiles. Peter bit me and scratched at me because of that. If it would have taken, I wouldn't have had to deal with any of that. I would have been a wolf. I would take that over feeling like a puppet and running around in the woods nude. You- I should have known you wouldn't get it either. That you'd be just as bad as Jackson. "Oh, Lydia, why would you ever want a bite to take?"
[ and then sort of as an afterthought. ]
...Did you really just compare me to him?
T E X T ☲ it's like christmas every time this happens tbh
... oh, so it is a power thing. he wisely does not comment on that. ]
yes. no. kind of. sorry. you're not scott, you are so not even a little bit scott. sorryx2 about the woods and nakedness thing, by the way, that must've sucked.
[ and oof, that kind of stings. no, he doesn't really get it, lydia. he doesn't want what you do. he can try to understand, he can see the perks, how it might make him stronger and better and faster, but he said no to peter—he'll always say no. not that you said no, or even had the chance to, but—
and the puppet. thing. yeah. he switches gears, feeling a little worse for her than he did when beginning this conversation. ]
did jackson seriously tell you that? wasn't he the one all gung-ho about the bite in the first place?
T E X T ☲ you give me awesome presents back so I CAN'T EVEN EVER STOP
I lost nine pounds. Minor bright side in it, actually. Also. Thank you. I- Never make me be him in your head. Ever. Again.
[ the thing is, when presented with all the options and given a choice, she'd choose staying human. that would mean getting to still hang out with allison, and it would mean her attack never happened and it would her life would be ninety percent more simple.
he can't see it but she almost looks like she wants to cry after he asks. ]
No. I would have liked that better than being told I ruined everything for him. That was fun, you now. I don't want to talk to him about this. You can't transfer immunity, Stiles. I'm sure if I told him that I wished my bite had taken, I'd end up hearing him be bitter about what happened with his. It's not my fault.
T E X T ☲ GOOD NEVER DO because i lauve youuuu
[ ha ha ha he's gonna kill jackson so dead. what a douchebag, jesus christ, telling lydia she ruined everything for him. first his stupid insufferable whining about wanting the bite and then the whole lizard thing and for cripes' sakes this is just getting out of control. ]
if there was anyone who could figure out how to transfer immunity, it'd be you, lydia.
i didn't say it was your fault. it's not your fault at all.
it's just... life's screwed up way of telling you that you matter.
T E X T ☲ this is where i draw hearts around you to show our mutual l a u v e I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT
I'd make it something a little more complicated than making out, wouldn't I?
To what? Werewolves who don't want to die? Enlighten me to how this just doesn't make me special in ways that I REALLY don't want to be special in.
T E X T ☲ sdkjgdflk HEARTS i know this and i adore it and you ♥
dude, i don't know. you've always been special, you've always known it. i mean, all those times you looked down at the guys who didn't worship at your feet - it's because they weren't good enough for you, right? because only you were good enough for you. even jackson barely made the cut, and he's... jackson. he's like guy you.
[ he's going somewhere with this, just bear with him. ]
scott told me that derek said, like, nobody had immunity. you're probably the only person the in the world who's got it. that means nobody can hurt you and make you into a slave to the moon once a month. [ more than she already is. but that's girl stuff. ] what i'm trying to say is, you're better than that. you're on top.
and i think it kind of fits you, so... just my two cents.